Hi my lovely followers.
This will be a more serious blog post about the flip side of our love for make up and pretty things and it was triggered by yet another online purchase of mine. (Keep in mind please, that I am not a professional, nor a freelance make-up artist.)
As you can probably tell I am feeling slightly guilty about my online spending and rightfully so.
In the past 2 days I have ordered quite a few things, that I don't really need, but that I really wanted.
But you know how it is, once you want something, you will convince yourself, that you do need it. Hey, we all "need" that shade of green eye shadow even though it is almost identical to another green eyeshadow that we have. It is different tho, right? The texture is better, the undertone is different, it's matte, it's satiny, it's frosty. Bottom line is: We want it. And I will keep convincing myself that I need it until I get my hands on it. And then I will move on to my next item of obsession and wanting.
I think, and I am speaking for myself only, my love for make-up is turning more and more into a shopping addiction. And it scares me, yet I can't seem to stop myself.
Let's take a look at my feelings during the last purchase: I knew it was unwise to purchase those items, I started feeling that rush through my blood with a slight feeling of excitement and...guilt. However, that greedy little voice in my head was telling me to push the button "confirm payment" already. It was telling me to ignore all those feelings of guilt and really common sense!
It's gotten to the point where I start hiding the fact that I made yet another unnecessary purchase from my loving boyfriend, because I know he'd be disappointed in me.
What happened to all my promises to myself that I was going to spend my hard earned money more carefully? Yes, what did happen to them?
I need to save up to go back to University and we're planning on leaving the country. We need the money. But that little greedy voice in my head kept telling me how I needed 10 more eye shadows and 2 more blushes.
And even now, with all my realizations I am still trying to trick myself into buying two more liners (hey LE, right? We must get our hands on them, before they're gone...), and a Mineralized skinfinish and two more eyeshadow refill pans so my palette is full and then, yes, then I will go on a no-buy. Right.
Needless to say the beauty and make-up brands know exactly what they're doing. Clever marketing. MAC in particular keeps coming out with a gazillion collections each month. And it poses a real danger for those of us who really need to watch their spending.
And as much as I love the beauty community online - it doesn't make resisting any easier. Yes, I do admit, it is wonderful to meet so many like-minded people. But watching youtube haul videos and reading reviews about that new green eyeshadow from the new xyz collection doesn't help. I am not blaming anyone but myself here, just want to make that clear.
I am just really frustrated by my own lack of diszipline.
How do you girls feel about this topic?
Do you feel you spend too much on make-up and beauty products? Is it getting out of hand? And what about all the time you spend on it?
Let's get the discussion rollin'...